5/1 Heretic – Investigator

People who can provide practical solutions in times of crisis. They also have a deep-seated need for privacy and personal space.

You are as bright a person as you are profound. You go through life with ease, as you gracefully step over obstacles and strive to get to the bottom of everything you come across. Creativity, commitment and vast amounts of knowledge are the three pillars on which your reputation in society rests upon. You are a born leader, teacher and guide. You generously share your experience and wisdom with others. The only thing you cannot fully understand is yourself.

Although you are accustomed to digging deep into things that are outside yourself, as soon as you try to dig within yourself, you start to feel utterly helpless. This makes you create a sort of mask for yourself, maybe even several. By subtly grasping the needs of other people, you show them exactly what they want to see in you. Even the people closest to you, rarely get a chance to see you without your precious mask. You consider showing your true self as weakness, and weakness is simply unacceptable.

While you are playing your role, you are like a fish in water. You forget yourself as you play the expert of all things: a shining scholar, a compassionate companion. Sooner or later, your favorite mask grows accustomed to your face. You become so devoted to this façade; the desire to convince others of its authenticity leads to you believing it yourself.

This self-driven faith helps you gain influence from the people that surround you. They begin trusting you unconditionally and are ready to follow you to the edge of the world. When you show by example what life should be like, you inspire others to do the same. This is where your personal trap is hidden.

You need to be as clear as possible where and why you are leading people. You must be sure that the goals you strive to achieve together are truly necessary. Otherwise, you run the risk of taking on superfluous responsibilities and sacrificing your own needs - and for what? Perhaps you’re only going down this path for the sake of maintaining the image of a confident mentor.

Some will call you a manipulator, but what you do, you do on an intuitive level. You inner self forces you to wear a mask for reasons of self-defense. Under your armor and external self-sufficiency lies a sense of insecurity. The ground beneath your feet is never quite hard enough to stand on with confidence. You feel unprotected and vulnerable ....

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